Post by Firstaria on Mar 29, 2016 8:52:51 GMT -5
Hi everyone, it's me, Firstaria, and I'm writing this to say to you all...sorry for what I put you through.
In these last two years, my life got a bit messed up by university and stuff, leaving me as a ghost on 10K Island. When I arrived, I wanted to change my winds, I had enough of the constant banter of the ITALIA region and wanted to change, and was also both fascinated and truly believed (and still believe, for what it matters) in the cause of the Defenders and the great job they do on NS.
But then, after a while, life caught and I started to miss and return several times in what I realized in the end is an INEXCUSABLE behaviour. I'm still amazed you kept following me, pointing me out when my nations CTE'd, when I disappeared and reappeared only for a while, and I have to admit there was no true effort on my part for trying to really return to active duty
What I probably regret the most is what I did to TITO. I think i deserve all the shame, because I only now see that it was only in my head that I could be a actual member of this force that really devotes itself to the mission, and tries to help people against what I still feel is nothing more than cyber-bulling hidden behind an exploit of game mechanics. I have to admit, I've been found lacking, and I'm really sorry for misusing your time.
But the worse thing is that I never did a true effort to know you all, to actually play this game with you and enjoy it. I barely know you for the names of the forum, I feel that the only forum section I truly visited was the Shelter's Island...hell, I didn't even knew about Shelter for suck a long time, I felt like a prick when I found out about something I didn't even know and had to write something. It's not nice to feel like you MUST write something, it should be more real, but the truth was that I was never truly part of this community.
NS had always been my weakness: I never had time for it, but I kept letting my nations live in this comatose state, sometimes waking up to answer issues, but never resolving the true ones. I guess I finally grown up and decided to face the truth about this. Is for this reason I've decided to resign from TITO and from the Ten Thousand Island Region itself: you have something so big here and I know that I'm not part of this marvelous place, I've botched all my chances to truly be an islander.
I've decided that I will try one last time to find myself with my fellow ITALIANS, although the past problems. It has been the community I knew the most in the end, and I've realized that if I want to know if my NS accounts are truly worth my time, i have to test this where this ALL started, not here, not giving you another empty promise.
I'm not asking you to accept this, I know this is a backstab and I deserve all your hate for this. But at the same time, I want you to know that I'm thankful for all the time spent with you guys, I didn't surely deserved it. And maybe yes, I hope you can forgive me.
Sincerely,
Danilo De Simone, the one bethind the nation of Firstaria.
In these last two years, my life got a bit messed up by university and stuff, leaving me as a ghost on 10K Island. When I arrived, I wanted to change my winds, I had enough of the constant banter of the ITALIA region and wanted to change, and was also both fascinated and truly believed (and still believe, for what it matters) in the cause of the Defenders and the great job they do on NS.
But then, after a while, life caught and I started to miss and return several times in what I realized in the end is an INEXCUSABLE behaviour. I'm still amazed you kept following me, pointing me out when my nations CTE'd, when I disappeared and reappeared only for a while, and I have to admit there was no true effort on my part for trying to really return to active duty
What I probably regret the most is what I did to TITO. I think i deserve all the shame, because I only now see that it was only in my head that I could be a actual member of this force that really devotes itself to the mission, and tries to help people against what I still feel is nothing more than cyber-bulling hidden behind an exploit of game mechanics. I have to admit, I've been found lacking, and I'm really sorry for misusing your time.
But the worse thing is that I never did a true effort to know you all, to actually play this game with you and enjoy it. I barely know you for the names of the forum, I feel that the only forum section I truly visited was the Shelter's Island...hell, I didn't even knew about Shelter for suck a long time, I felt like a prick when I found out about something I didn't even know and had to write something. It's not nice to feel like you MUST write something, it should be more real, but the truth was that I was never truly part of this community.
NS had always been my weakness: I never had time for it, but I kept letting my nations live in this comatose state, sometimes waking up to answer issues, but never resolving the true ones. I guess I finally grown up and decided to face the truth about this. Is for this reason I've decided to resign from TITO and from the Ten Thousand Island Region itself: you have something so big here and I know that I'm not part of this marvelous place, I've botched all my chances to truly be an islander.
I've decided that I will try one last time to find myself with my fellow ITALIANS, although the past problems. It has been the community I knew the most in the end, and I've realized that if I want to know if my NS accounts are truly worth my time, i have to test this where this ALL started, not here, not giving you another empty promise.
I'm not asking you to accept this, I know this is a backstab and I deserve all your hate for this. But at the same time, I want you to know that I'm thankful for all the time spent with you guys, I didn't surely deserved it. And maybe yes, I hope you can forgive me.
Sincerely,
Danilo De Simone, the one bethind the nation of Firstaria.
You haven't hurt TITO or 10ki and I've enjoyed having you around, whenever RL didn't get in the way.
